It's a work night...

I am being so bad right now, its 11:29 PM on a WORK night, everyone else in my house is sleeping (animals included), and I can't make myself go to bed. I think it's all subconscious, if I go to sleep, my break is over. It's been a bad day today, I've been in a funk. Instead of enjoying my last day, I've sulked about having to go back to work. It is harder than I thought it would be. At least, when I went back to work after maternity leave I knew I had three weeks of vacation right around the corner. Now, what do I have to look forward to? Spring Break in 50 (yes, I'm counting) work days? I know that's very negative, it's just how I feel right now. I know that I need to enjoy each day, and I will, I just wish the days would slow down. I wish this time would stop flying by. I know that when I go to bed tonight, I'll have to wake up tomorrow and get back to our new working "normal". I'll have to rush to get ready in the morning (because I'll hit snooze way too many times), wake Colton up and love on him quickly, drop him off with my mom, work, pick him up, rush around get things done, play a little, put him to bed, go to bed myself, and start all over the next day. Where does that day go? Colton really likes to stick to his schedule. We try to keep him up to have that extra little time with him but he's just not having it. He knows his routine and he sticks to it. By 8, or even before, he is ready for bed whether we like it or not. When he is hungry, he tells you he is ready for his bottle by putting both hands up by his ears and "assuming the position". In the evenings, when he assumes the position the playing is over! He has his bottle, rubs his little eyes, and is OUT until we wake him the next morning. There's just not enough time in the day.
I loved every second of being home with Colton. I think I have appreciated my time with him more over the Christmas break then when I was on maternity leave. After going back to work for the last month and a half I really realized what I was missing at home. We really had fun this Christmas break, Colton got to meet a lot of family and friends he'd never met before, he was a real trooper on many many shopping trips, and I think he had his picture taken more then in the first 5 months of his life ( I just developed pictures from Nov-Dec. and I developed 250 pics- ridiculous I know)!
There's just no getting around it...if I don't go to bed now, tomorrow will REALLY be tough! This post has helped me get it all off my chest. I feel a bit better, or maybe I'm just really tired.
I guess it's time...Good night!